During this journey.. to whatever it is, true happiness, living my passions, striving to change the world in my own special way, there are a few lessons that have been coming up over and over for me lately.
1) Put my intentions out into the universe, and take the time to actually listen by being open to whatever comes at me. This involves trust in something other than myself, which has proven to be harder than anticipated. Letting go... what the hell does that even feel like? ha ha ha...
2) Stop trying to control the energy around me. It's hard to wrap my head around this one b/c we are told from a very young age that if we work hard, we will be successful. However I know this not to be true... how many people are stuck in jobs that they hate, after spending years of their lives in school to get that job, working long hours, and getting paid next to nothing. This is us making a conscious decision to "take charge" BUT that is controlling energy.. and that is NOT our job... I can still work, but it shouldn't be hard... or should I say "difficult". I have to remember that if I feel any resistance when I am trying to do something.. then I am trying too hard to control the energy around me... anytime I do not feel happy about anything, this means I'm trying to control the energy around me... again, I need to let go.. to work in harmony with the forces around me; to be open to that.
I have found myself trying to control "positive thinking" lately... trying to force myself to get into a positive headspace... it's futile however.. b/c I'm not letting myself feel what I need to feel... and let my emotions ride out the way they need to. It works both ways...
3) When I think I have surrendered enough, I need to surrender some more :) This was a fantastic, recent vlog topic of Gabby Bernstein (a NYC based motivational speaker) Sounds like an AA meeting right? lol! But it's so true... it's a lesson in being humble I suppose...
When these three lessons first entered into my world... I felt like I was having epiphanies, each one greater than the last... and they seemed so simple.. common sense almost. However I have found myself having to practice a CTFO a few times (chill the fu*k out, as Gabby B says).
I suppose it's like learning a language.. I need to hear the words a few times so I can REALLY know them... this writing thing should help too :)
